eShanz Journey

Im feeling weak inside, and cold as well. A bowl of Sea Amber Jelly from Snowflakes to make me even cold. So cold that it freeze the tears within and i dont need to feel the pain, and the sadness inside.

Had dinner with em. Teow Chew porridge at around Yu Lek there. The food were simple. Just like a normal family dinner. Yea, indeed they’re more than just a friend.

Watched a movie with em. Although it was sucks, but we make it till the end of the story. A day with them around, one on the right side, one on the other side..holding on to me, and never let me fall.

They know me well. And they’re willing to accompany me for shoppings, movies, yamcha, dinner or whatever shit when they know something happened on me. I just love em. Thanks for the day and sorry for the delayed post.

it’s time to stop revealing myself here;my blog.
i’ll find another place for myself.
may u happy and achieve ur goal very soon.
out of difficulties, makes miracle.
i hope it’s true.

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Here’s a song that i wanna share with everyone. I’d introduced to my friends, and they are all addicted to it now. So am i. It’s a japanese song that sang by my idol from Korea, Dong Bang Shin Ki which is now known as JYJ.

A meaningful song that can really express my thoughts, my feelings.
Sometimes, things aren’t like what you see.

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Kimi ga sayonara wo tsugezuni dete itta ano hi kara
Kono machi no keshiki ya nioi ga kawatta ki ga suru yo
Kimi no subete ni naritakute kawashita yakusoku mo
Hatasarenai mama omoide ni kawatte shimau

Hitori kiri de kimi ga naita ano toki sugu ni tonde yukeba
Ima mo mada kimi wa boku no yoko ni ite kureta

Dekiru naraba mou ichido iitakatta daisuki tte
Kimi e no omoi mo afuredashita kotoba mo ima wa todokanai

Kimi wa doko ni ite? Dare to doko ni ite? Donna fuku wo kite nani shite waratterundarou?
Boku wa koko ni ite. Ima mo koko ni ite. Kimi to futari de mata aeru to shinjite iruyo

Kawarazu omotte iruyo
Kimi dake omotte iru yo

Musunda kami no ushiro sugata ni kimi wo kasanete
Furikaeru mishiranu dareka ni nando mo gakkari shita

Chakushin ga aru kimi no namae kitai shitari
Kakko warui mainichi bakari sugite iku yo

“Wasure rarenai” no ga uso de hontou wa “wasure taku nai” dake
“Tsuyogari” ga boku rashisa naraba mou iranai

Kimi ga inakya mou nido to kanjinai shiawasette
Dou ganbatte mitemo kobore ochita namida wa sugu ni tomoaranai

Kimi wa doko ni ite? Dare to doko ni ite? Donna fuku wo kite nani shite waratterundarou?
Boku wa koko ni ite. Ima mo koko ni ite. Kimi to futari de mata aeru to shinjite iruyo

Dakara ima koushite boku wa mata hitori kimi no namae yonderu
Kore ijou setsunasa wo dakishimete yukeru wake nado naiyo

Demo soreshika naindayo

Kimi ga iru dake de kagayaite mieta
Ano koro wa nido to modotte wa konai kedo
Nani ga okotte mo nani wo ushinatte mo
Kimi wo aishita koto kesshite wasuretaku nai

Kimi ga doko ni ite? Dare to doko ni ite? Donna yume wo mite nani shite waratte itemo
Zutto koko ni ite, ima mo koko ni ite
Kimi to itsu no hi nika aeru to shinjite iru yo

Kawarazu omotte iru yo
Kimi dake omotte iru yo
Kawarazu omotte iru yo
Kimi dake omotteiru yo

a song for you.
call me stupid or whatsoever.
you wont know how it feels like until you experience it yourself.
will you forgive me for my mistake?
i just couldnt stop blaming myself.
i even afraid that i will call the wrong name from time to time.
i shall just stop my mistake.
im not ready yet after all.

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The day continue with the companion and a dinner at Mama Mia Restaurant & Bistro, PJ. It was my first time there. We ordered a plate of fried mian xian, and a golden chicken chop. Hmm, i would say both of it were delicious. Anyhow, im not sure whether is it because im hungry at that moment or what lah. But overall, it’s really nice and the price is worth for the portion of the food as well. =)

fried mian xian at RM 9.50 and golden chicken chop at RM 12.50

Had my dinner, back to my house and i thought that’s all for the day. But when the clock strikes at 12am, here comes my two buddies, and another guy appeared in my house with the help of him to open the gate downstairs. Well, it didnt really scare me, but my father is the one who feel shocked and said, “meh si meh si..aiyor, hak sei ngo”. HAHAHAHAHAHA..wtf

There you go..they’re my closest friends from college, tangwengchun and hewmeiteng-with the bf, munzo. Sorry for posting la moi, but u look cute there ma. >.< Thanks for the little surprise that you two three gave me. And also the little celebration with the cupcakes, candles, and photos. You guys made me feel so..Whoaa ~ unsangkable ! Haahahahah~! xD

Although it was simple, but that’s more than enough already. I didnt ask for more but just a presence of you and the friends. Thank you. =)

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0320 is the day.

queenie, carmen, me, wengchee

Celebrated with the jimuiz one day earlier in Pavilion. Meet up at 12pm and had our lunch at Din Tai Fung. As usual, we shared our stories with each other as we’ve not seeing each other for such a long time. It’s time to update at least once in a while. =)

it’s always yummy-licious

and it’s always remind me of someTHING

The purpose was to celebrate my birthday. And i guess it’s my very first time cry on my birthday in my life. It was supposed to be a happy day with the girls around. But i couldnt hold back, im sorry. Especially you, queenie. Heh~

After telling and listened to those sad stories, of course it’s time for something sweet to make everyone happy back. It’s the snowflakes. It was my first time to be honest. Queenie said snowflakes looked like something healthy to be eaten. And i totally agree with her. LOL~ dont ask why. =P

Here’s the present from them. It’s something privacy which is why i cant show what’s the thing inside. =P Thanks a lot. Not only for the present, but also your concerns, advices, and companion. Love you guys so much. =D

thanks for the diy card. xD

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once again, i’ve talked about it,

still the same, everyone is talking bout the negative side of yours.

me who does not related to you anymore, still believing in you.

maybe all these while, that’s what really bond us together; trust.

maybe the reason that you gave was really just an excuse,

4 years ago, i doubted about love until i met you in 2 years ago,

and now, you made me doubt about love once again,

everything that u had promised, there were all just a beautiful lie.

anyhow, it doesnt matter anymore..

no matter how much i love you, the fact is you wont be back anymore.

u’d rather wait for her, makes me realized tat u’re no longer loving me,

and i guess i shall seal my feelings towards you deep down inside my heart.

i’ve already done my role as your girlfriend, tried my best to satisfy what you want me to be.

maybe im not good enough, but one thing im sure is, i never did any wrong thing on your back before.

i love you for what you are and who you are.

for now,

i know you’re having some kind of problem with her,

but as your friend, or mayb u dont even wanna be friend with me anymore,

anyway, what i can do is,

i wish that someday she will appreciate you for what u have done for her.

and i hope you’ll pray for me too,

as i dont really wanna start from zero AGAIN.

GOOD LUCK !

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