eShanz Journey

0320 is the day.

queenie, carmen, me, wengchee

Celebrated with the jimuiz one day earlier in Pavilion. Meet up at 12pm and had our lunch at Din Tai Fung. As usual, we shared our stories with each other as we’ve not seeing each other for such a long time. It’s time to update at least once in a while. =)

it’s always yummy-licious

and it’s always remind me of someTHING

The purpose was to celebrate my birthday. And i guess it’s my very first time cry on my birthday in my life. It was supposed to be a happy day with the girls around. But i couldnt hold back, im sorry. Especially you, queenie. Heh~

After telling and listened to those sad stories, of course it’s time for something sweet to make everyone happy back. It’s the snowflakes. It was my first time to be honest. Queenie said snowflakes looked like something healthy to be eaten. And i totally agree with her. LOL~ dont ask why. =P

Here’s the present from them. It’s something privacy which is why i cant show what’s the thing inside. =P Thanks a lot. Not only for the present, but also your concerns, advices, and companion. Love you guys so much. =D

thanks for the diy card. xD

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once again, i’ve talked about it,

still the same, everyone is talking bout the negative side of yours.

me who does not related to you anymore, still believing in you.

maybe all these while, that’s what really bond us together; trust.

maybe the reason that you gave was really just an excuse,

4 years ago, i doubted about love until i met you in 2 years ago,

and now, you made me doubt about love once again,

everything that u had promised, there were all just a beautiful lie.

anyhow, it doesnt matter anymore..

no matter how much i love you, the fact is you wont be back anymore.

u’d rather wait for her, makes me realized tat u’re no longer loving me,

and i guess i shall seal my feelings towards you deep down inside my heart.

i’ve already done my role as your girlfriend, tried my best to satisfy what you want me to be.

maybe im not good enough, but one thing im sure is, i never did any wrong thing on your back before.

i love you for what you are and who you are.

for now,

i know you’re having some kind of problem with her,

but as your friend, or mayb u dont even wanna be friend with me anymore,

anyway, what i can do is,

i wish that someday she will appreciate you for what u have done for her.

and i hope you’ll pray for me too,

as i dont really wanna start from zero AGAIN.

GOOD LUCK !

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It was nothing. Just a go-for-fun trip with 2 pairs of humans in last month. Another delayed post. The trip was relax but short, i would say. Although we had nothing better to do there, but wat’s more important is who’s the one who standing beside you.

aren’t they look cute together? *eulk* hahahahha…=P

=)

We went there for a walk, enjoyed with the cold breeze, and glad to have a warm hand to hold on. With a cup of coffee, friends around, loads of jokes, and the laughters of joy. Everything was simple, yet happy. Although it was just a few hours there, maybe it was nothing to you, but it meant a lot to me.

favourite pic among all. =D

I know you’re trying hard to heal my broken heart. Im touched that you’re willing to bring me go after knowing that he didnt even bring me there before. Im touched that you’re willing to go with me for nothing. And i can see that you’ve changed a lot just because of me. Everything you did, i appreciate a lot. =)

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the feelings are still there,

the feelings of having u as my pleasure,

the feelings of how we trusted each other,

the feelings of how much we appreciated each other,

the feelings of been through so many things with you, all the ups and downs,

they are all still living in my heart.

nobody could ever replace your position in my heart.

it’s already been 3 months plus, and im still trapped in the past.

i thought i could get rid of it as time flies,

but, im still haunted by you.

i dreamt bout you almost every night,

i dreamt that we’re back together again, happily.

i know it’s just a dream.

people around me keep telling me to forget bout this guy,

u’re not worth for me, we’re totally from different world.

i know that’s the facts, but..in these 2 years, we’re happy together, isn’t?

everyone see us as an ideal couple, we’ve not quarrel as much as other ppl did,

we obeyed each other, and i thought we could make it till the end.

bcoz of ur egoism, u’re giving such reason and end it right away.

does the reason u gave really matters?

is that means a girl has to be able to mix with them BEFORE u start to be with her?

so, now the one u’re having could mix with them very well?

if yes, then i wish u good luck.

if no, then think again is it really matter !

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CNY Nin Chor Sei

Went to someone’s house in the afternoon. Chilled around, watched tv, tidy up the messy room while waiting to go his auntie’s open-house at night. Gambled there with his siblings, and relatives. Get back to his house and wait for second round to gamble with his friends. Whoaa…! xD

auntie’s dog

Peanut is the name. =)

CNY Nin Chor Ng

This is the greatest day of all. A day to bai nin with the college friends and non-stopped of gambling. LOL~! First, i had lunch with someone and meet up with all the college friends at Connaught. Then we, 4 cars head to hewmeiteng’s house, to fetch her to our first station, which is Elsen’s house at Serdang. Sit for a while, get angpau then off to the next station-Hewmeiteng’s house.

5 cars departed from Elsen’s house to Hewmeiteng’s house. So damn kua jiong. Reached her house, sit for a while, get angpau, watch tv.. and then it’s time to start gamble. Her brother being the banker. We all lose. >.<

Then Reagan be the banker. Everyone seems like winning back a bit. Muaahaha.. Alrights, enough of gambling for the moment..let’s go for the next station-TehMouSeng’s house.

Again, reached there..straight away start gamble. He has a gin-rummy set there as well. So..some of them played gin-rummy instead of blackjack.

all the lan-dou-yiiiiiii

Everyone seems like getting tired and hungry after about 6 hours of gambling. So we went for dinner at Ampang. I forgotten the name of the restaurant, but it was Dash’s family business. The food there were seriously nice. We’re all full of energy and ready to gamble AGAIN. Hahahahahha~!

everyone happily lou sang

this is what we get after lou sang = NOTHING LEFT

group pic of the day. =)

me and my moi. =D

The last station was Eddie’s house which is located nearby Ampang also. His house was HUGE and NICE. All his relatives were there too. His house was occupied with humans and gamblers. =.=

eddie’s room

eddie’s frog. yiong sui !

Back home around 1am plus. Fuhh~ out for the whole day and need to wake up early the next day !

CNY Nin Chor Luk

Woke up early in the morning, thought of continue with yesterday’s bai nin session. Then go for class at 2pm. But the class was canceled which until now i still dont know wat’s the reason. Never mind, continue with the bai nin. First station was Steven’s house, then go for lunch at PappaRich near his house, then Reagan’s house.

Gambled a while there, then i need to go back already. Thanks to Ken for the car and Tangwengchun for the ride. =)

macamlah very pro. = S

The remaining days of CNY were normal and it’s time to go back to college and face all the notes again instead of poker card and money. = S

friends are always there,
but, nobody will understand,
even myself dun understand,
he’s enjoying with his life,
but im still confused and sad,
the scars that left behind forever couldnt be healed.

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